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THE CHILD WITHIN
A Journal From William Samuel & Friends
Fall 2001

ABOUT HEALING
Part Three
By William Samuel


The first three papers on "healing" follow one another quickly. A reading of the three themes together shows clearly how intertwined they are.

The first paper deals with contriteness, an essential element for seeing Good in everything. The second gets into the heart of the matter - the constant perception of good, plus the ongoing anticipation of Good at every turn of the road, not unlike a child happily anticipating Christmas. (This subject, very near the Secret Itself, is discussed more fully in other papers.)

Contriteness cracks the door of perception and expectation swings it open wide. Now we come to the subject that, comprehended and accepted, allows the Child of us to walk through the doorway and ON.

If the heart of you felt something in the earlier messages, this one will come with an especial significance. Are you ready? Read on with expectation.

Are the following words familiar? "I understand the truth intellectually, William, but I am unable to feel it in my heart. Apparently I haven't enough trust for the truth to work in my affairs"

Or this: "I understand the principle of God as all in all, but I don't have enough faith to believe it sufficiently."

Or: "I simply don't have your understanding, Mr. Samuel. If I had your understanding, I would be able to demonstrate more things in my life."

Have you thought these words before? We all have. Listen to me, Woodsong friend, and the Heart of you will hear something wonderful that it has known intuitively from the first. It is something grand and it comes with Light. It comes with softness, and innocence and relief from guilt. It comes with childlike forgiveness and healing on it wings.

Once again I ask that you read all that follows in quietness. Relax a time and be still within. Subdue the intellect and listen with an open heart.

Do you think you haven't sufficient understanding and faith to see GOOD everywhere? Not so. You can! Human understanding and faith, important as they seem to the human (intellectual) scheme of things, have little to do with the HEART of the matter - except to distort it and hold up a cloudy lens through which one sees limitedly and darkly. It is my experience, after much study with lifelong students of Truth, that one can study metaphysics forever without ever coming to see the emptiness and futility of human faith and human understanding. I remember my long, hard struggle in the intellectual maze - always on the brink of understanding but never quite there. Listen gently now. You will have heard these words before but this can be the time to hear BEHIND them and BEYOND them.

The me-sense that has been struggling for understanding all these years isn't capable of understanding! The old man who wants to increase his faith and trust isn't capable of faith and trust! How much understanding can a BELIEF have? How much faith does a shadow exercise? Does a dream ever have enough trust? The half-faithful, half-trusting, half-smart creature of vain dreams WILL NEVER HAVE ENOUGH FAITH. How long are we going to try to educate that one?

Now reader, don't wrestle with this. Go at it easily. This is a subtle point, difficult for the intellect to comprehend. The intellect of us has had long training in the other direction. Its arena is the world of tangibility. The intellect is supposed to know about the things of tangibility - how to weigh and measure, how to cross the road, how to deal with "things" - but when we let it, the intellect of us goes on and on and ON making the Luciferian struggle to know what God knows and do what God does. (Wasn't it the Angel of Light's trying to make himself equal to God that brought his expulsion from Heaven?) There is a point beyond which the intellect cannot go - yet the Heart of us, the real of us, the child of us is already there!

It is no wonder that the agonizing SEEKER questions the depth of this faith, trust and understanding. How slowly one awakens to this intellectually stupefying Fact of Being. I studied for years, traveled around the world twice to sit at the feet of enlightened teachers in the four corners of the earth, before - in anguish and agony - it really, really "dawned" that there was no study, discipline or practice in all existence that would give the intellect of me, the human of ME, enough understanding. "For Goodness sake!" I said in absolute wonder one day, "What has given me the idea that this struggler on the scene would one day acquire the faith and trust to understand INFINITE Being? Where did such a notion come from?"

Then, simultaneously came the Light that - (listen softly) - GOD understands God! GOD understands and trusts Godself ALREADY! And that never could "seeker-I" have faith, trust or understanding because the "seeker-me," the possessor-of- awareness-me was/is the old man, the myth, the liar of few days and full of trouble.

For the first time in my life I consciously recognized the futility of trying to educate that damnable nonsense. Never will that one have enough of anything to make him more than the old man to be put off. But what about my trust in God, I asked. What about my faith and understanding? The Answer was immediate: GOD HAS FAITH, TRUST AND UNDERSTANDING APLENTY! It finally dawned that I didn't have to do anything but concede that God is God. There was no mind but God-mind, fully faithful to Itself - and already BEING all the understanding in the universe!

All these words just to write that man has no REAL trust at all - and never will have. We melt away in our toilsome egotism that wrestles with God, trying to make Him bless us with enough faith, trust and understanding! What a ludicrous laugh to remember how I wanted enough faith to work wonders in my intellectual sense of the world. What vanity and arrogance to have believed I had a mind of my own outside God's Mind that needed to know this or that. No wonder Jeremiah railed so. And no wonder we have been told from the beginning that all human learning is as nothing, nothing in the eyes of God. No wonder we have been told to be still and let "that mind be in us which was also in Christ Jesus," thence to be a faith-full witness (observer/anticipator) of good (God) everywhere. Reader, we can do it. Yes. We have enough faith to do it. Yes! We are right now, the awareness of God. And God has the faith and trust in US, His very own SELF-awareness! Yes, yes! God understands us!

My dear friend, it takes something Wonderful to bring us to our intellectual knees in honest contriteness and humility. But our arrogant time was not lost time nor evil time. It was the natural and necessary means of comprehending the REAL Identity of God. Our humanity has been the delineation of our Divinity - no less than darkness was the means of knowing Light. I FORGIVE my old man of his debts and thank him for the service he has so faithfully rendered in My behalf.

Your head may be swimming with all these words, but please read them again - and then again. You will look up soon and, just like me, begin to see and FEEL good/God where you have never been conscious of It before! Why not? There is nothing but Good to be seen really. Our heart sings when we loose it and let it soar! You know this is so already.

These first three essays on HEALING are best viewed as a single paper, a SINGLE outlook and inlook. Read and reread them until the intellect argues with nothing and you feel you have written it all yourself.

Now. How does one put this to work? What good are words of "truth" if they are never clear enough to be put to the test in our walking around world? In the next essay, we will speak of DISCIPLINE and include a bit of detail as to how to do this. For the present, just let me assure you that you can do all these things. It is simple, practical and, best of all, POSSIBLE! Though our sins be scarlet, though the human burdens unbearable, we can do this discipline. How do I know? I have done it in the face of death and with a body condemned. If I can, you can. Anyone can who is simply willing to acknowledge that Something greater than the human sense of things is the Source of Life. "Believe in God" is the sole prerequisite.

One does not have to possess faith or trust or super understanding to acknowledge the presence of Life because it is the very Life that feels the sunshine, smells the new grass and hears these very words within Itself! We have never been asked to do more than believe in God/good, accept Its presence here and now and act in accord. There has also been the admonition to have no OTHER gods on the scene. The me-sense understood, it can be abandoned; abandoned, its idols go with it. There is more to this, clearly, than just calling it unreal.

In summation of this paper and the two that precede it: With the me-sense naughted, I-awareness look for the good that is roundabout in everything - with the added ANTICIPATION that even greater Good will disclose Itself to/as Me - (to repeat) - not unlike the anticipation a child feels in those marvelous days before Christmas morning. I do this in the completely valid knowledge that good is everywhere to be seen and felt because God is everywhere and is Self-seen. Awareness (that sees these words) is God's Self-viewing going on. In the simplest sense of words, I look for good and find it because it is there to be seen and felt. I anticipate even greater good because the Transcendent One of "timelessness" (Eternity) is ready to reveal Itself at any moment in time, and I AM GOD'S BEHOLDING AWARENESS! I-Identity am the eye of God. God's Eye is faithfully, trustingly, being and beholding. I am the faithful witness. And my dear friend, so are you!

It seems to me the whole purpose of my life with all the events it has included, from the least to the greatest, has been for the purpose of writing these past essays for my world - and to write them clearly, simply, honestly and with authority, having lived them and having put them to the test. I know that what I'm trying to write here is faithful and true.

If only all the words about Truth DELIVERED what they seem to promise or imply! Wouldn't that be grand? While I quarrel with words and their false hopes unnecessarily raised - and I especially rail at the poorly written or mystical words, untested and untried, that lend themselves to any interpretation - I remind myself often that words in themselves can't deliver anything. Even the completely honest ones. It is the holy Life that reads them that makes the difference. It is inevitable that the Christ-Heart of us will lead us directly to Truth and Its most honest declaration. When? It has already.

Kindest love from Alabama, William Samuel



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